What is wrong with me?

first of all you need to completely stop drinking..like completely. that definately wont help your health or your mental stabiblity. if you can aford to be a heavy drinker then you can afford better food. seriously man theres liquer stores that have healthier and cheaper food than mcD's. go buy some almonds and stuff. if you are eating unhealthy and drinking and in depression then of course your guna have social problems. give yourself a purpose in life. whatever class ur taking..take it with passion. or at least have passion in something. give yourself a mission each day. like make someones day, compliment someone, help someone. drinking away ur pain will only help you for a litle while. i know im starting to sound like a preacher lol. I think ur problem is you are underestimating and de-valuing yourself. go find urself another girl..but let me inform you ..you better streighten up on this whole i-dont-care-what-i-eat-and-im-just-guna-… dealio..or else your not guna find a nice chicka. you should also make new friends...you sound perfectly like a perfectly communicator on here..so let you writing expand to speaking ;) anyways im not ur councilor and your a big boy :) live your life